I'm going to sit down and write and write and just let everything flow out of me like water pushing against a dam that has just been broken.
Right now I simply have to hold it all back. I don't know why but it just wouldn't flow even if the dam were to break.
It simply will not come. It will not flow, it just trickles.
I do believe that my inner passion manifests itself in two forms, love and writing. I am truly having difficulty giving freely of either right now and I wish I knew why.
My guess is that I have injured myself and it will just take some time for the healing process to complete itself.
For now, I find comfort in reading the words of others. I read and read, soaking up quotes and books. I enjoy spending time alone more than I ever used to. Maybe this is just a solstice in preparation for a really big creative purge.
A glorious time when I can embrace life, write and passionately love myself, so as to authentically give these gifts to another.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Thought Provoking
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was, at its best, than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
~Margaret Mitchell
~Margaret Mitchell
Thursday, May 21, 2009
God I Wish I Could Dance
What a wonderful gift
to be able to express
passion in such a beautiful
art form
I feel that passion
stirring inside my soul
To live a life
without being able
to express that passion
Is living absolutely
no life at all
Looking forward to,
"So You Think You Can Write"
to be able to express
passion in such a beautiful
art form
I feel that passion
stirring inside my soul
To live a life
without being able
to express that passion
Is living absolutely
no life at all
Looking forward to,
"So You Think You Can Write"
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Wreck of the Day
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Sunday, May 17, 2009
The Long Way Around
Well I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found
Takin' the long way around
~The Dixie Chicks
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found
Takin' the long way around
~The Dixie Chicks
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
A World Inside A World
Many times each day, I step out of my world
and cross the threshold into the world of another
Someone who's world has been displaced for a time
by a planned surgery, a serious accident, or a crippling illness
I become part of their world by default, a lotto of sorts
I may see them once or twice and then never see them again
But each and every time I turn to recross that threshold
my hope is that I have left their world just a little brighter
than it was before I walked in
and cross the threshold into the world of another
Someone who's world has been displaced for a time
by a planned surgery, a serious accident, or a crippling illness
I become part of their world by default, a lotto of sorts
I may see them once or twice and then never see them again
But each and every time I turn to recross that threshold
my hope is that I have left their world just a little brighter
than it was before I walked in
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Amen
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."
~Harvey Mackay
~Harvey Mackay
Friday, May 08, 2009
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Conscience
The human voice can never reach the distance
that is covered by the still, small voice of conscience
~Mahatma Gandhi
that is covered by the still, small voice of conscience
~Mahatma Gandhi
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
My Heart
Blowing gently back and forth with the wind
exposed to the elements for long enough now
I have taken it down off the line
I have pressed it, fluffed it up
and put it right back where it belongs
in the care of only those who take great care with it
Fresh and sun drenched
mended and renewed
it's whole again, ready to love and be loved
My Heart
exposed to the elements for long enough now
I have taken it down off the line
I have pressed it, fluffed it up
and put it right back where it belongs
in the care of only those who take great care with it
Fresh and sun drenched
mended and renewed
it's whole again, ready to love and be loved
My Heart
Monday, April 20, 2009
The Light At Each End of the Tunnel
I finally feel like I am far enough through the tunnel
that the haunting light behind me is disappearing
and the brilliant light in front of me has come into focus
that the haunting light behind me is disappearing
and the brilliant light in front of me has come into focus
Friday, April 17, 2009
Random
activities
change
inner comfort
anger
time
quiet
sustaining
children
growing
learning
trying
safe
family
truth
responsibility
acceptance
forgiveness
courage
embracing
manipulation
importance
love
ideals
self image
perfection
health
knowledge
wisdom
patience
trust
God
change
inner comfort
anger
time
quiet
sustaining
children
growing
learning
trying
safe
family
truth
responsibility
acceptance
forgiveness
courage
embracing
manipulation
importance
love
ideals
self image
perfection
health
knowledge
wisdom
patience
trust
God
Friday, April 10, 2009
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Around In Awareness
"Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness."
~James Thurber
~James Thurber
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Homework (continued)
11. I believe that had I not been too terrified to try out for cheerleading in high school, that I would have made the squad and it would have changed the course of my entire high school experience.
12. The happiest I remember being as an adolescent was when I was playing softball.
13. When I was in 4th grade I was awarded the "Red Headed Bombshell" award because I cracked everyone up.
14. Also in 4th grade there were 3 Kim's in my class so I volunteered to go by my middle name "Ann" and to this day people will come up to me and say "Ann Perry!!" It's so strange.
15. When I was a kid I used to like sitting around the table with the adults while they talked, smoked cigarettes and drank coffee, instead of playing outside with my friends. Funny I never smoked or drank coffee much. I was just neurotic from listening to all the adult conversation.
16. The first time my dad took me fishing I tried to bait my own hook and the shrimp jumped and scared me. I dropped my pole on my dad's head, it fell in the water and I almost did too. He didn't take me much after that......Still doesn't.
17. I absolutely loved be pregnant, it was the first time I didn't have to worry about how big my stomach was. It was really very freeing since I feel my biggest figure flaw is my stomach.
18. Even though I have been married for 21 years, I have no earthly clue what it feels like to be married.
19. When I was 14, I got a piece of a shell embedded in my foot and I didn't show my mom because I didn't want to go to the doctor, thank God she finally noticed me limping because I came very close to getting gangrene.
20. I don't remember a whole lot about my childhood but to this day I remember being 4 or 5 and going to the pediatrician. I asked him if I had to get a shot and he told me no and then he ended up giving me one anyway, I was really pissed at him........I still am.
..............5 more to go!!
12. The happiest I remember being as an adolescent was when I was playing softball.
13. When I was in 4th grade I was awarded the "Red Headed Bombshell" award because I cracked everyone up.
14. Also in 4th grade there were 3 Kim's in my class so I volunteered to go by my middle name "Ann" and to this day people will come up to me and say "Ann Perry!!" It's so strange.
15. When I was a kid I used to like sitting around the table with the adults while they talked, smoked cigarettes and drank coffee, instead of playing outside with my friends. Funny I never smoked or drank coffee much. I was just neurotic from listening to all the adult conversation.
16. The first time my dad took me fishing I tried to bait my own hook and the shrimp jumped and scared me. I dropped my pole on my dad's head, it fell in the water and I almost did too. He didn't take me much after that......Still doesn't.
17. I absolutely loved be pregnant, it was the first time I didn't have to worry about how big my stomach was. It was really very freeing since I feel my biggest figure flaw is my stomach.
18. Even though I have been married for 21 years, I have no earthly clue what it feels like to be married.
19. When I was 14, I got a piece of a shell embedded in my foot and I didn't show my mom because I didn't want to go to the doctor, thank God she finally noticed me limping because I came very close to getting gangrene.
20. I don't remember a whole lot about my childhood but to this day I remember being 4 or 5 and going to the pediatrician. I asked him if I had to get a shot and he told me no and then he ended up giving me one anyway, I was really pissed at him........I still am.
..............5 more to go!!
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