I have never done, said
so many things that I regret
Raging anger swells inside me
that is very difficult to harness
Always good at controlling myself
now I fight the grinding halt of the brakes
Little patience for people, circumstance
when I myself am prone to the same behaviors
Every day a different mood
the one constant is fatigue
My feelings, thoughts escape my mouth
before I have had time to edit them
Leaving me back peddling
for damage control
Feeling afraid, insecure, confused
is so unbecoming
I'm sure it's not always as bad as this
but I feel middle age creeping up on me
I hope it doesn't get any worse
maybe the Salsa dance lessons will help
