Hey....Hey you out there!!! What do you want me to write about?

This blog has been a source of therapy for me, an outlet of sorts. I have a very, very dysfunctional family. I am estranged from my mother and my sister as they are toxic and have caused me nothing but grief. Their side of the story will be quite different from mine but let us just suffice it to say they are toxic. Nuclear waste toxic.

So I guess what I'm getting at is that I know a good majority of the population comes from dysfunctional families and I wanted to reach out to anyone who felt that they wanted to comment. To say whatever you feel like saying. I have had people tell me that they can't believe I don't speak to "my own mother." It makes me question myself for sure, however, looking back on so many years of building up hope only to be let down time and time again, renders me exhausted. It got to the point that it was like a familiar dance that I was ultimately able to predict how and when the dance would end almost every time.

Toxic people can and often times are our own family members. We continue to "tolerate" behavior from them that we simply would not tolerate from a friend or acquaintance. The phrase "Honor thy mother," haunts me but I can honestly say that I have tried. Not just once, many, many times. My interest is how to get rid of the negative affects that the breakdown of this key relationship leave behind. The decreased confidence, difficulty building relationships and trusting people. I mean "if you can't trust your own mother, who can you trust?" That thought has crossed my mind a million times. According to the self help books I have read that is about a million times too many, as controlling your thoughts and inner voice are key to a peaceful mind. Ahhhhh, a peaceful mind. That sounds like heaven. Maybe we can focus on that here. Unburdening our minds of all of the negative emotions associated with family strife or any other unpleasantness to create a quite, peaceful mind. What do you think? Really, I want to know what you think.