Me

I’m not being me
Why

I wish I knew
Why don’t I like being me

Never feel good enough
Always feel like I should be doing more

More people should like me
I should give more

Be more kind
Care more

Not care so much

A better mother
A better friend

I don’t keep in touch
Call enough

Why is it so overwhelming being me
I try
God knows I try

Why can’t it just ever be enough
Enough of me
For me

I’ve lost myself
Trying to be a better me

I don’t even know who the hell I am anymore
Or if there was ever anything wrong with the not so great me

I’m tired
A lot

I’m not surprised
Trying to be this extra special me

Conflict

Guilt

Doubt

Creep into my happiness
Showering it with acid rain

I smile and laugh out loud
Sometimes right through the pain

Heavy weights rest on my shoulders
A burden to say the least

Trying to relax
Enjoy my life

Looking for some peace
God please give me some peace